You are not where you want to be because you are too general and vague in your description and analysis. You might be in the area, but you’re not at your destination because you didn’t plug in the metaphorical address into the navigation system.
Your brain is like a servile mechanism. If you ask it a question, it will go play fetch with you and come back with an answer after some time. It will take you to where you want to go after you truly decide exactly what you want.